The Commitment Report

It’s Sunday morning, and I let myself sleep in until almost nine today. 0_O not sure how the hell that happened, considering my brain is in anthology overdrive. Not only am I wrapping up final edits on From the Dark Side, and sending sneak peeks off into the interwebs, but I’m also starting edits on the Farrago anthology to help raise money for Michael Bekemeyer’s film project… We are hoping to launch that anthology in time for Bekemeyer’s early August birthday…

So why am I sitting on the back deck frying in the sun when there are so many things to be done?

I wrote like mad this week… for work. Which is never a bad thing, as I love it, but I only managed to type out about 500ish words fiction-wise, and that made me incredibly sad. I have had so much inspiration and want to write lately, but no time to sit down and do it. I’m going to have to sit down with myself and work something out, as I cannot function on a level where there is no fiction writing. No sir.

Am I beating myself up? No. I recognize the fact that sometimes other priorities will win out. I just want one day that’s all for me. Five hours where I can sit there and write until I feel content. Maybe I’ll do that Wednesday night, after the anthology is prepared for Friday morning’s launch. Yeah… Wednesday.

I don’t want to clone myself. It’d be too much confusion, and the real me wouldn’t get to experience everything fully, but man… if I had a time machine, I’d get so much more done.

How about you? Did you answer the call of all your commitments this week? How do you battle the anxiety of knowing there’s NEVER enough time to do everything you want/need to do? Do you fall apart, or suck it up, knowing that no matter what, you will prevail? I think I fall somewhere in between… I feel anxious about all the things I need to do, but deadlines give me an extra bit of oomph I need to get it all done.

Stay strong, and stay committed. I believe in you.